bertabahlah

Aduh.kepala sakit.kmarin tengah orang best2 beraya baru dok masak daging, aku dah pun bertolak balik penang.macam biasa, drive sdiri ditemani Lil Adam.and macam biasa, Adam sangat la good boy.ada la merengek sikit2.but most of the time, dia tido je.

Sampai umah kul 8, dinner then kemas barang.aduyaii.penat.siapkan barang2 adam utk ke babysitter esok, baju aku untuk esok.jam 11 malam, tido.

Jam 3 pagi, adam bangun nak main.adoiii..mama nak tido la sayang.bagi layan upin ipin.tapi biasa la, jari tak diam.dia tekan2 fon then cite upin ipin stop.pastu merengek suruh pasang lagi.huhu..pendek kata, mama pun takleh tido jugak la.

Nasib baik tak lama.jam 4 dia tido balik.

Tu yang mama sakit kepala hari ni.sobs..paper sains form 2 tak marking lagi.bertabahlah.

it takes two to tango

So I just sing the ballad.coz tango is not for us.coz three and four are not tango.sigh~~

Nota kaki: kakyong is back.haha..

kakyong

Kak yong is back in action.haha..kakyong.gelaran member2 dalam group whatsapp.dorang panggil aku kakyong sejak dorang tau aku drive sendiri dari penang ke kelantan.haha..masa bujang dulu memang biasa je.but this time with Lil Adam.

First time masa raya puasa hari tu.kesnye dah beli tiket flight tapi last minute sekolah awalkan cuti plak.hmm..4 hari diawalkan.rasa tak sanggup nak bertapa kat penang dengan adam je.sahur n buka puasa sorang2.so, burn la tiket flight n me drive balik dengan adam after subuh.haha.alhamdulillah adam is such a good boy.tido je all the time.

This time raya haji drive balik sendiri lagi.after balik sekolah terus pecut balik klate.weeee~~ Adam tido dari kulim sampai jeli.hehe..

Budak comot pas makan aiskrim n kek n roti then tido.

Harus Terpisah

Sendiri, sendiri ku diam, diam dan merenung
Merenungkan jalan yang kan membawaku pergi
Pergi tuk menjauh, menjauh darimu
Darimu yang mulai berhenti
Berhenti mencoba, mencoba bertahan
Bertahan untuk terus bersamaku

Ku berlari kau terdiam
Ku menangis kau tersenyum
Ku berduka kau bahagia
Ku pergi kau kembali

Ku coba meraih mimpi
Kau coba ‘tuk hentikan mimpi
Memang kita takkan menyatu

Bayangkan.. bayangkan ku hilang, hilang tak kembali
Kembali untuk mempertanyakan lagi cinta
Cintamu yang mungkin, mungkin tak berarti
Berarti untuk ku rindukan

Ku berlari kau terdiam
Ku menangis kau tersenyum
Ku berduka kau bahagia
Ku pergi kau kembali

Ku coba meraih mimpi
Kau coba ‘tuk hentikan mimpi
Memang kita takkan menyatu

Ini harusnya kita coba saling melupakan
Lupakan, lupakan kita pernah saling bersama

Ku berlari kau terdiam
Ku menangis kau tersenyum
Ku berduka kau bahagia
Ku pergi kau kembali

Ku coba meraih mimpi
Kau coba ‘tuk hentikan mimpi
Memang kita takkan menyatu

Adam mama..

Kelakar.tengah mama bizi beli barang dapur, Lil Adam boleh plak tsengguk lena dalam trolley.such a good boy.biasanya kalau tak selesa nak tido, meraung la.ni tido diam2 dalam trolley.huhu..

hadoiii..

Morning world..

Makin tua ni makin ade instinct pulak.sebelum aku memang takde perasaan.kalau orang cakap tak sedap hati ke ape ke, memang aku tak faham.

Bangun tido hari ni rasa tak sedap hati.tapi just ignore je la.bersiap macam biasa.pegi hantar adam macam biasa.then drive biasanya pasang lagu or radio or bacaan ma'thurat. Tapi hari ni tak pasang pun.

Sampai kat pintu pagar sekolah, gedegang!!! Aduyai, cemana bleh tak lepas corner masuk skolah.padahal hari2 dok belok tempat sama selama hampir 2 tahun.robeklah sisi kereta alza tu.hmmm..

Banyak sangat kene fikir.otak dah letih.i need a break.

4 a.m.

Since ada cite horror berlaku dpn umah aku, well very horror to me sampai aku nangis2, so adam lost his hamster and mama decided not to bela hamster anymore.huhu..

So, everyday mama akan fikir nak pegi mana n buat apa dengan adam.kalau mama balik lambat, ok la. Dok kejap tengok upin ipin then beperang mandikan adam.then dah malam.tapi kalau balik awal, mama bawak la adam jalan2.

Last week almost hari2 pegi jalan.pegi Youth Park, pegi state library 2 kali.shopping complex tak payah cakap la.hehe..pegi beli susu sepeket tapi lepak sampai 2 jam.

Laparnye Mama tunggu Adam masak.

Yesterday mama n adam dinner kat secret recipe.orang lain makan dengan tenang.mama makan sampai tcekik layan adam.

N adam.lately ade perangai baru.maybe sebab tido awal sgt, skrg suka bangun kul 4 pagi ajak main.uwaaaa...sakit kepala mama bile jam 5 pagi adam hulur crayon n coloring book.sorry adam.esok mama keje.

My friend said, soon I'll miss whatever he did.touching la plak.

Well, my progress.ribut sudah berlalu.marking paper dah habis.tak la stress sgt.ribut exam akhir tahun plak menanti.then ribut jaga spm.then cuti sbulan.weeee~~

Psst..ari ni akan jumpe someone.ok.brain is not functioning well due to excess blood flow.hahaha.

First time blogging gune Note II.

SPM is just around the corner.

Nak tergelak tadi. Actually memang dah gelak pun. Masuk kelas form 5. Sekarang memang musim ulangkaji je la.so, sume students tengah muka stress dok jawab soalan dan cari jawapan sambil discuss dengan member. Cikgu just masuk tengok-tengokkan je la.sebab nanti cikgu subjek akan masuk bincang soalan dengan diorang.  

Nak dijadikan cerita, ada seorang students tu bosan sangat then dia tido. Kawan dia menyakat pegi lukis kat kening dia dengan kaler hijau terang. Hahaha.. memang lawak gile rupenya. Pastu mula la adegan nak membalas. Terpaksa cikgu bersuara. Hehe.. yang tak tahannye dia pegi toilet untuk basuh pastu tdengar jeritan lagi. Rupanya dakwat tu susah nak tanggal.hahahaha.. nasib kawannye bawak hand sanitizer. Haishh.. 

Kite pun penah sekolah jugak. Teringat zaman dulu2.haha.. banyak jugak keje-keje gila yang pernah dibuat. 

lalalalaaa~

Lately i always caught myself singing. Haha.. i think i emitted a good vibe to people around me. Only now i have time to do what i like, what i want.

Guess what, my students gave me 5 hamsters. And Lil Adam really like it. Like he wanna spend all the time with them. Even read a book for them.hahaha. seriously. I caught him reading his Ultraman colouring book near the cage. Haha.. and our house was so havoc the day i bring home those hamsters. Adam opened the cage and pull the hamster out. Mama screamed and squeal chasing the hamster. And he feed the hamster with everything and anything like the crayon, a cup, coins, food. Sigh~

source: wikimedia

And i went to hair saloon like i mentioned before in previous entry. Haha.. it’s so nice to go out and meet new people. Whoa, i really admire the hair stylist. She’s humble, nice and we talked about many things.

I also went for my dental appointment. Dr Lim. I really like this guy. He’s so passionate about his work. He’s a very nice person. Well, these days it’s hard to see people greets us with a smile. But he did. And he explain clearly about my situation. Psst, he even gave me MC one day for my case. Thanks Dr. And the doctor assistant also very polite. A kelantanese boy. Why i say ‘boy’? because he really behave like a boy. So cute. Haha..

And today i have LDP. The speakers also very good. This is the 2^nd time i feel LDP give me so much benefits.

And i also went for karaoke with my colleagues. Haha.i don’t know i can sing. At first i didn’t even dare to touch the mic. But, in the end, i pick my own song and sing. Hahaha..good job. Well done. A very good way to release stress.

Well, many good things happen to me even though bad thing still accompany me. Haha..

And i start blogging too. Which i like the most. And i hope i write for good. 

tadaaa...

For 2 and half years, i was immersed in my life. I dont have time to look around. Life is hectic and chaotic. I keep chasing the thing that i thought were mine. Then someone slapped me on my face with reality. That is the moment i stop chasing. I stop. Take time to think. I didn’t talk much and analyze things. Then i make a decision, this thing is not worth. To keep that thing, i abandoned many important things in my life.

Then, instead of chasing after it, i chase it away because it keeps coming back to me. How irony.

Then only i have time for myself, for important people around me. I have time to pamper myself. I go to hair saloon, beauty centre, shopping, buying things that i want years ago. I’m not doing it for others but doing it for me. Then when i spent my time with loved ones, it is quality time. Because my head no longer wandering for that miserable thing. Only now i can appreciate the laughter of my loved one.

I forgot when did i celebrate my 26^th . i thought 26^th is worse but 27^th is the worst birthday.

Many people said to me, they miss who i used to be. I’ve changed a lot by the time i was busy chasing after it. But i have to admit. It is very hard to let it go. Very hard. But for the sake of me and my loved ones, i have to.

And here i am today. Turning into a new leaf even though still struggling for better life. And i feel blessed that i’m not alone. People who i almost forgotten, come and tell me that they will never leave me alone. 

Sweet talker..

Entry kedua untuk hari ni.Aku dah excited dengan blog baru ni.muahaha.. Owh, Lil Caliph itu tidur lagi untuk kali kedua. betul kan susu yang aku bancuh.bukan benda lain?

Lately, aku belajar perkara yang baru dalam kamus hidup aku. How to become a sweet talker? aku bukanlah seorang yang berkata2 manis, hanya seorang perempuan yang straight-forward.bercakap berdasarkan fakta, yang penting adalah fakta tanpa mengambil kira perasaan orang lain. but based on my observation, sweet talk can solve many things rather than being straight-forward.

Tapi, sweet talk bukanlah bermaksud kita menipu. cuma cara penyampaian yang berlainan. bukankah itu menipu?huhu..

from my experience, i mean my observation, sweet talker dapat memenangi hati orang lain dengan mudah, disukai ramai dan jarang orang terasa hati dengannya. arghh, sulit bagiku menjelaskannya.

Situasi 1: tolong ambil buku tu.
Situasi 2: U cantik la, tolong amik buku tu.

Berbeza bukan. Aku tahu bagi sesetengah orang, memuji orang lain adalah perkara yang sukar.Tapi apa salahnya demi keamanan.hahaha...

Aku hebat.Ko juga hebat.

haha..cant believe that i'm back again to this blogging world. i feel so empty when i'm not writing. We're just atoms? huh? it's just a name. we're humans created by God. We have feelings, we have needs and we're not just simply atoms that form molecules and compounds. We have Jannah and Jahannam for afterlife.So be careful with everything u do today coz it might affects u tomorrow.

Aku kecewa hari ni.piiiirahhh, awal-awal entry dah sebut pasal kekecewaan. Eh, bila masa tukar bahasa ni? Serba boleh pintar soleh.huhu..

Why everytime i want to write, i always thinks that i have a simple life.nothing extraordinary. No, i',m not that simple.i'm very complicated person who become more complicated when my age get older. it's just the age that get older.not me.muahaha..and i'm not living an ordinary life. my life is superb!! superb lah sangat.huhu..

oh, tolong lah.aku tidak mahu tulis perkara negatif di sini.cukuplah menjadi orang yang negatif lantaran pengalaman hidup yang menduga.ko tulis script drama tv mane ni?

oh, sudah jam 12.30 tengahari.dia masih belum bangun. eh, betul kan aku bancuh susu untuk dia? bukan benda lain. 

Kuatkan hati. Allah menduga..ye, aku hebat seperti Ultraman dan Naruto. Selalu kalah di awal pertempuran tapi akan menang jugak akhirnya.